Trevor

He died of an aggressive Type IV cancer that ravaged his body in 3 weeks. Since the tumors were the type that attached themselves to whatever they were near (bone, muscle, organs, etc.), surgery was not an option and I loved him too much to be selfish enough to put him through chemotherapy. I chose to put him to sleep on July 31, 1998. 3 weeks gave me no time to prepare for his illness, much less his loss. I miss him every day and think of him a lot. His companion, Tiffany misses him too.

I never thought I would want another Sheltie.........but 10 months has a way of softening the grief you feel......just a little around the edges. We "discovered" another Sheltie puppy and have had him for 4 weeks. Tiffany has just begun to play with him (Barclie is his name!) He will never replace the love I have in my heart for Trevor, but I do find myself at least able to smile and laugh at some of his puppy antics.

I can't wait until I get to Heaven and pick Trevor up at Rainbow Bridge on the way!

In memory of our mahogany sable Sheltie,
Trevor 'Louis' Duffield
12/4/88 - 7/31/98

You Are My Sunshine


Not young, not old
Not sick, not well
But inside your body a cancer grows,
making tumors swell.

You’ve been my companion for 9 ½ years,
You’ve followed my every move and watched me cry my tears.

You’ve shared in my joys with your happy barks,
You’ve been a loyal friend to me, when often I missed the mark.

You see, it didn’t matter if I stayed out or came home late.
To you it was the times we spent together that you thought were so great.

Sometimes we’d take a walk or maybe do nothing at all -
The bond I had with you began when you were small.

Thinking back on the memories we’ve made,
How can I prepare myself for the loss I’m about to face?
Do I just ignore the rest, hope for the best,
or surrender you to God’s grace?

Your appetite is now diminished,
Your strength has become weak,
The only comfort you seem to find
Is during intermittent bouts of sleep.

And now as I lay by your side,
Stroking your mahogany sable hair
I have to wonder to myself
why all of this is so unfair.

And as I watch you, struggling to breathe
I know that deep inside my heart,
The memories of you will never leave,
distance near or far apart.

And when I make the decision
to finally give you rest,
I hope you’ll know from heaven above
that your master did her best.

Goodbye to my sweet Trevor -
With your faithfulness I was eternally blessed,
I wish you love, I wish you peace
In the kingdom of dogs, you were the very best.