Kisha

Kisha is dearly missed by Brian Blee. A few words:
Kisha Blee 11/25/95-9/8/98
3 short wonderful years
Why do I love Kisha???
She was always there for me and everyone else. I only wish
I could have been there for her when she needed me the most.
She loved every minute of her life, and she loved her
family (each member in a different way). If I had know
she would leave me so soon, I would have spent much more
time with her.
On the day twenty-five of November, 1995, I came home
late at night and I heard a strange noise coming from
the Utility room. It had been several years since the
death of Flicka. I went upstairs to investigate the
disturbance. When I opened the door, I was overwhelmed by
the smell of urine and shit. Sitting, crying right in the
middle of the stench was a little white ball of fur
trembling and scared. She was the cutest thing I ever saw,
but I was not about to corrupt the memory of Flicka by
loving another dog. So, being very stern with the dog,
I said "What are you doing here?" she looked at me as
if to say "I am here because you need me". Continuing
to be stubborn, I decided to test this little ball of
fur, by asking her to sit. (I knew she wouldn’t know how
to, but I was just being an asshole). When I asked her,
she looked at me like she was trying to figure it out.
So, I helped her sit once. I then asked her again to sit.
To my utter amazement she sat. I thought to myself "fluke"
and asked her again and again she sat. From that moment
on, I realized how much she wanted to be part of our lives
and decided to love her.
Right after we got Kisha, mom bought a little brown rubber
bone. From day one, Kisha would play with that bone. There
was one problem, however. The bone would always get lost.
So, poor Kisha could hardly ever play with it.
You might wonder where she got the name Kisha..
Well my sister Renee got it from somewhere.
I was opposed to the name because it seemed kind of wimpy.
But somehow it stuck and I learned to love it. I was still
apprehensive in soiling Flicka’s memory at this time and I
tried to not get too attached to Kisha.
When I cam home from work, I would often have a mountain
dew in a bottle. Kisha loved to play with the bottles. She
would start by taking off the lids. Then, she would work
on the little plastic ring until it came off. After that
she would shred the label until it was off. Then and only
then, would she proceed to play with the bottle. You could
throw it and she would bring it back to you.
The first adventure with Kisha was getting her fixed.
She had picked up a little habit of chewing on and eating
just about everything. Once she ate a cardboard box and
threw it up. Mom bought her a little bed and she chewed
that up. Mom took her to the vet to get her spade on a
Friday. Saturday, we got a call from the vet saying that
Kisha tore out all her stitches. She ended up staying at
the vet for the whole weekend. When I went to pick her up,
she was so very happy to see me and me her.
The months floated by and that darn dog just got better
and better. She was barking one day and I decided to try
something. I said "SPEAK!" and waited for her to bark
again. When she barked, I said "Good Dog!" I then tested
it by saying "SPEAK!" After one attempt Kisha was
speaking. She was such a smart dog, but she had a couple
of problems. She could not catch anything in her mouth at
all. I worked and worked with her on this. Finally, one
day, she caught something and that is all it took. Problem
one was solved.
Another problem she had was she liked to run all over
the place. She just would not stay home. This turned out
to be her one and only flaw. Me and mom would take turns
chasing her down and we got so mad at her. We screamed at
her to come, but, smart as she was, she knew she was in
trouble. So, she would keep just far enough from us so we
could not catch her. It made us furious. Thus began the
adventure of keeping Kisha home. (boy what an adventure)
The Memorial day holiday had come and I had started going
on an annual trip to Fred Robinson Bridge to paddlefish.
I decided to take Kisha with me. It was raining that day,
and nobody else was going with me to the bridge, so it was
just Kisha and me. She always rode so well in cars, calm
and content, she just loved to be going along. I really
liked having her up there on that trip. She got so muddy
from running all over the place.
Needles to say, Kisha spent most of her time in the house
because of her wandering problem. However, spring was
coming and she was shedding like a bandit. Mom was battling
this with full force. I think she vacuumed the floor 3
times a week. One day Kisha and the neighbor’s dog got into
a bit of trouble. It seems they decided to go play with the
neighbor’s chickens and ended up killing a couple.
Naturally, the neighbors were upset about this and the
once small problem with Kisha became a major one.
We now had no choice but to find a way to keep her home,
or we would have to let her go. By this time I had grown
quite fond of Kisha and was not about to let her go.
It was quite a problem. But, giving all the credit to mom,
we thought we might have found a solution. Mom saw
somewhere an add for an electronic fence that would give
her a little jolt of electricity and keep her in its
boundary. So, we decided to give it a try. At this time,
I was getting pretty busy with work having been on a
lay-off period over winter. Mom did most of the work in
just about everything. But, a couple of times, we both
went out together to train Kisha. Of course, as smart as
Kisha was, training her was a snap.
We let Kisha out of the house a few times by herself
while we watched her. She really seemed to take to the
new fence and obey its laws. But, her brain was working
on over-time trying to figure a way out of this dilemma.
One day, she did figure it out and that was the end of
that.
At about this time, I was offered a job in Stevensville that
I decided to take. So I was off to find a place to live the
re. (This was with the assumption that I would take Kisha
with me) Renee had grown very fond of Kisha too and I
decided to leave Kisha home. Well it came time to head for
the road and I had to say goodbye to Kisha. (for how long?
I had no idea) When I looked her straight in the eye,
somehow I knew she knew what was going on. It was one of
the hardest things I ever had to do.
In Stevensville, I missed everyone - Family, Friends, and
Kisha. She gave a kind of love you just cant get from
people. Oh did I miss her. Mom would call about once a
week and it was always great to hear her voice. I would
ask them to tell Kisha to speak and when I herd her, it
made me not so lonely. I really wished she was with me.
About 2 lonely months past and me and my family had decided
to get together up at the boulder. I begged mom to bring
Kisha, and she agreed. I remember pulling into the campsite
late that evening. I remember seeing all the people I loved
so much. And then, out of the dark came a wonderful sight.
It was Kisha (all grown up now) I was so happy to see her.
We spent the weekend up there and I let Kisha sleep in the
tent next to me. But, the weekend past and it was time
again to say goodbye. This was just as hard as the first
time.
I kept getting the phone calls week after week getting the
latest news of the people I loved and updates to moms battle
with keeping Kisha home. It was getting gradually easier
day by day. Mom and dad decided to build a fence as a last
resort solution. Wow! it worked. Problem 2 was solved.
Now, the problem was that I was in Stevensville and my
family and Kisha were at home. It was looking pretty grim
on me getting back home more than a couple of times a year.
I hated it there. The next trip home was Christmas (Kisha’s
second Christmas). I got 5 days to spend with them all and
they went so fast. But, then came the dreaded goodbye again.
I spent several months in Stevensville until Easter and
then my parents and sister came to visit me (no Kisha). It
sure was great to see them again, but a little dog was
missing. Easter came and went and it was again time to
say goodbye. I planned a trip for memorial day to go home
and the days leading to that just kreeped by. Finally, the
time to go home had come. When my plane reached its
destination, it was different because no one was there to
meet me. I drove home and there she was. The rain had come
that weekend and I decided not to go paddle-fishing, but
I did enjoy being home and seeing Kisha. The weekend flew
by and it was once again time to say goodbye.
I had had enough of Stevensville, and was ready to come
home once and for all. It wasn’t until July that I finally
found another job. I was coming home. Mom and Dad helped me
move all my stuff back home and I was back, back with my
family . I remember when I got back I went into the back
yard with Kisha and it was like she was showing me her new
fenced home. She showed me all the trails she had made and
seemed so happy to see me back there. For the remainder of
that summer, we spent some time in the mountains of which
one trip we took Kisha. She loved going with us anywhere.
Everything was perfect, except for my new job. However,
once in a while, she still ran off. She was really learning
the discipline we gave her every time she did this.
Actually, this was the only time I ever had to scold her.
Now that I was home, I could spend plenty of time with
Kisha. She love to go play out on the front lawn and chase
after a Gatorade bottle in the back yard. She would grab
the bottle and make you chase her around. I would come
home from work and occasionally play outside with her. As
summer wore on, we went outside less and less. Kisha was a
grown dog now.
The winter and the cold came back and the outside playing
pretty much stopped. But we still played inside. She was
getting her winter coat and she looked beautiful. Once in
a while, when the weather permitted, we would go out and
play. She did some neat things in the snow. Sometimes I
think because she was born in the winter, that was her
favorite time.
Christmas had come again and I was out shopping for gifts.
I decided to buy Kisha a volleyball for Christmas. When I
gave it to her, she didn’t know for sure if she was allowed
to play with it. But, eventually she got used to the idea.
The ball was to big for her to catch in her mouth, so she
tried as hard as she could to catch it with her front paws.
She got pretty good at it. Winter kind of drug on through
the months for Kisha. She was getting pretty board with stay
ing inside. She really loved to run.
Spring had sprung, and Kisha was shedding like crazy.
It was driving mom crazy. Me and her could go outside more
often now and mom insisted on it. Kisha loved it every time
someone went outside with her. Renee and Dad would go
running and she loved going with them. She would get so
excited when they were getting ready to go.
Spring moved to summer and Kisha had gotten used to
staying at home. She no longer ran off on us. She was now
the perfect dog. The summer was hot this year and it was
affecting all of us. Things moved pretty much as they always
do until day seven of September 1998.
I got up that morning and I was kind of run down from a
long week of work. My parents and sister went up to the
Boulder to spend the weekend, and they invited me up.
I didn’t feel that good, so I was contemplating going.
The day drifted by and I had a hard time deciding weather
or not I was going up there. I thought of Kisha.
She hadn’t really gone anywhere this summer with us.
I asked her "Do you want to go fishing?" Her eyes perked up
and she got excited as to say "Yes". So, I decided to go.
I got things ready and we were on our way. She sat content
in the front seat of the car anxious to get wherever we
were going. She looked out the window and looked at me.
Finally, she took a little nap. When we got there,
everyone was glad to see us (especially Renee). She said
"Hi Kisha!" and Kisha went crazy. She was very happy to be
up there with us. The night rolled on and it was time to
go to bed. I laid the seats down in the truck and me and
Kisha got in. Throughout the night Kisha was nervous about
her sleeping area, she was used to sleeping at home. She
would whimper a little and I would call her close. Then
she would sleep a little. This went on throughout the
night, but I didn’t mind. I enjoyed her company.
When morning broke, Kisha wanted desperately to get out of
the truck, so I let her out and remained to sleep some more.
When I got up, I still did not feel very good. There Kisha
was, exploring the campground. She seemed so happy. Me, mom,
dad, and Renee decided to do a little fishing before we
headed for home so we all got in the truck and I put Kisha
in the back. When we got there, there was a little trial
to the fishing spot. Kisha pulled me like there was no
tomorrow. We just could not go fast enough. We got to the
hole and fished for a while. I walked with Kisha for a bit
to let her explore. Mom caught a little trout and it
swallowed the hook so far, we could not get it out. So,
we decided to keep the fish. Dad worked a little puddle
in the shore so the fish would stay there. Kisha was
fascinated with the fish. It was so cute watching her
play with it. She was very gentle. Burnt out on the whole
fishing trip, we decided to head for home. Mom and dad
went ahead with the trailer and me and Renee followed them
home. I had not rolled up the sleeping bag and I put the
seats down again. I let Kisha in the back and she curled
up in the back of the truck like a little baby. She slept
most of the way home, tired from her adventure. Most nights,
Kisha slept in my room, however, she went to bed early on
her bed in the family room. But, bright and early in the
morning of the eighth day of September 1998, Kisha came
in to wake me.
I woke up and went out to the family room and started the
normal routine. That day, dad went running with Kisha and
then Renee went running with her. Kisha loved to go running
with them. I heard news that my sister Stacey and her
husband Mike were coming out for a visit. So, I mentioned
to them that they might bring their dog out for Kisha to
play with. When they were out, the dogs had a ball outside.
We played cards, during which I was feeling really lousy.
After the game, I decided to go into my room to lay down.
I was there for about 2 hours when my mom came in and
said "Brian, I have some bad news. Kisha is dead".
The words hit me like a rock and I lept up to see her.
It turns out that she died right outside my window.
I went outside and Renee was watching her from the
deck crying. I went to her and she was already stiff.
Right at that moment, a piece of me died. My mom,
dad and Mike buried her next to Flicka while me and Renee
watched from the deck. We were both crying.
That night, Mike and Stacey told us how Kisha was entered
into our lives. They said she was in the pound on her
last day and she was dirty and cold. One day later and we
would have never got to know Kisha. We gave a gift to
Kisha. We turned one day into 3 years. And, in return,
she gave us 3 years of unconditional love and joy.
The time I missed with Kisha in Stevensville turned out to
be a third of her life. But that was how it was meant to
be. I thank god for the gift of 2 years with her.
I will miss this dog very much.
For the dog I love.
Brian J Blee