Matilda

it is over 2 months since my little 13 lb. pekingese had to leave me...i am feeling very very upset about that...she was treated for urinary tract infections and the last one, i just knew something was terribly wrong...but, i let them do what i thought was right....squeezing her to get a urine sample, and expressing her anal gland...all i think now is that they sqeezed poison into my little one and killed her....i am distraught, more so, than when i had to have her put to sleep....i keep blaming them for killing her, and blaming myself for not doing the right thing .....

matilda was my best friend, my little princess, so cute and gentle and loving of everyone...the loss is incredible and i don't know what to do....no one knows how i grieve because they would think it so foolish that i would feel this way about a little fur-ball.

matilda was one in a million, beautiful, perfect and never complained...which is probably why it took me so long to know she was so sick...