Cooler

My beloved dog Cooler was put to rest saturday, 6/17/00. he was my little doggie angel and i miss him so much.

cooler was such a special dog. he had the bluest eyes you've ever seen. we found him digging for food in a dumpster 13 years ago and brought him home and he never left. i know he was put here on earth to help me get over my moms recent death, and boy did he ever help me, for the next 13 years. he was precious. we had such a special bond, its hard to explain.

he got cancer in november, 1999. we tried everything to save him, even radiation and chemotherapy. but last week, the cancer returned and took him so fast, my head is still spinning. i feel so empty and lost right now, such a big part is missing from our family.

i am due to have a baby in august, my first, and i sometimes feel so sad that i had to lose my first animal baby to have my first human baby. i wish cooler was still here, but he suffered so in the last three days of his life, it was heart wrenching. i go out in the backyard and sit by his grave and just talk to him, i feel better out there for some reason.

i just hope and pray he is somewhere where he feels better again and is not suffering. maybe he is with my mom, waiting for us to join them. i hope so. i just wait now for this emptiness inside of me to go away.

rest in peace my little angel. i am so sorry we couldnt save you, you didnt deserve to die the way you did. i just hope that every animal lover can experience the special bond that cooler and i had, i think your lucky if you just have that bond with a dog once in your lifetime, its a miracle.